So it has come to this.
As I stare at the ceiling which seems so close to me, I laid on my bed unable to fall asleep.
Final exams are coming up so it is understandable for me to be on edge a little bit, but this was more. I was unhappy because I know that something was going to change. My new friends which I made this semester were not going to be there anymore. Especially one.
"Getting to know exchange students is not worth it," my friends always tell me, but I never listened. It was of course an idea that is understandable for someone to not make a relationship that does not last. We expect someone to always be there for us knowing full-heartedly that it was not possible. Exchange students were like that too. They had to stay close to each other due to our lack of hospitality and did not bother trying to reach out to other local students or full time internationals.
I did not give a shit and made friends anyways, and now I am being sad for it. But this is the good kind of sad because I know it is human to be sad. It feels like a heartbreak since I knew it could have been prevented but I chose to be ignorant.
Sure as hell was worth it though :) That's something I won't let anyone take away from me.
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