Unsettled

Finally went back to Shenzhen. It was a long day today spent with two of my best friends :) 

Got a lot on my mind lately and today was the perfect distraction especially since I was taken to a Chinese massage parlor in Shenzhen. At the end of it, I've made up my mind that I really don't like Massages. I tried Thai massage before when I was taking my friends touring around Bangkok and Pattaya but now that this is my third experience with getting a massage, it's definitely something I've come to not enjoy.

The good thing about getting a massage however is that inability to think whatsoever. When you try thinking about a certain topic, your mind just keeps wondering on and on non-stop about something else when your body is being kneaded like a dough. It helped clear my mind a lot, even though it was just temporary.

Birthday is coming up and I don't know exactly what I want to do with it. I'm trying my best not to over-think so much about something and that ends up keeping my mind blocked. I wouldn't say it is a writers' block because I'm writing right now but I sure want to know why I can't shake it off at all.

Funny thing is....Part of it is jealousy, I'm sure of that. Not of anything, but I am jealous that someone I know is able to go that extra mile and just step out of the border without looking back. I am jealous because I know I can do the same but I have never taken that step yet and I am scared. What I need to do right now, is to not be so jealous anymore and start getting inspired. Easier said than done so let me just stay unsettled for tonight.

It's not you. It's me.

"I'm sorry I ignored you ok? I'm sorry I'm not good enough...but I can't just give all of my time to you.

Please stop...Don't make it any harder than it is....I'm here now aren't I?

Let's just make up Blog. It just happens...cuz Sitt Happens".

Wow...that actually sounds worse than I thought it would. But hey it has been a dark period for me cuz it was Final Examination time and technically I still have one more to go...which is called Engineering Management...and I don't really care too much about that course compared to my other hard ones that I got over with.

So what's been happening? Well...Life has been about studying lately, so it was quite uneventful. I am trying my best to steer away from the social side. Spending most of my time studying in the computer lab because the library at HKUST was so full all the time. I went to lower-ground 4th floor today and could not even find a place to sit down. Final examination period really is a busy period for all the people because if you have lived on-campus before, then you would know that it is an impossibility to study in your hall-rooms for many many reasons. One of which is because...the bed is right there. 

So besides studying...since I was done last night, after an epic meal of Indian food from Jojo's Bar& Restaurant, who my friend while talking on her phone had left him waiting outside in the cold for 30 minutes straight and got him super pissed at me... I ended it with a bang at the 1st Silent Dance party @HKUST library last night.

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It was an epic thing and a lot of people showed up. I'm making a medley of all the vids I can find now and hopefully can put it in my next blog post. 

And then today...my Chill day...I drew this. I kinda find drawing relaxing and it was a good way for me to let go of everything else. 

Studying hard, playing harder.

Best part about being done with exams early....SLEEP!!! And that's what I'm doing now. Good night, World!